Podcast by Christopher White and Max Thomas
08 December 2025
In this powerful and deeply honest episode of Addicted to Recovery, Christopher White and Max Thomas sit down with international fashion icon and long-term recovering addict Paul Sculfor. Paul opens up about his extraordinary journey — from the heights of the 1990s global fashion scene, elite parties, and international success, to the depths of addiction, burnout, and emotional collapse. With raw vulnerability, he shares how alcohol, cocaine, and compulsive behaviours slowly took control, despite outward success and discipline in his professional life.
Paul reflects on childhood anxiety, fear, and the generational impact of trauma, and how those early experiences shaped his addiction. He takes us inside the moment when life finally became unmanageable — leading him to rehab, surrender, and a life-changing decision to step away from his career to focus solely on recovery. Now over 21 years clean, Paul speaks candidly about the 12-step program, trauma therapy, spiritual awakening, and what it truly means to live at ease with yourself. This episode is a must-listen for anyone in recovery, considering recovery, or seeking hope, honesty, and proof that real transformation is possible.
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01 December 2025
In this episode of Addicted to Recovery, hosts Christopher White and Max Thomas sit down with Steve, a long-time member of Gamblers Anonymous who has been in recovery for almost ten years. Steve offers a raw and honest insight into how his gambling addiction began, how it spiralled out of control, and how recovery has transformed his life.
Steve describes growing up in a stable, loving household, with no obvious signs that addiction would ever be part of his life. Gambling entered harmlessly—small bets during family outings to the dog tracks, or casual football accumulators. However, in his early twenties, after taking a job in London, gambling shifted from occasional fun to a daily compulsion. Lunchtime visits to the bookies became a regular ritual; soon he was timing his breaks around race schedules, placing as many bets as possible, and craving the buzz and adrenaline that came with it. He explains how he would literally push past people in betting shops just to get a bet on, because being “in action” felt essential.
As the addiction deepened, Steve’s life became dominated by secrecy, debt, and anxiety. He began taking out loans, extending overdrafts multiple times in a week, and fabricating stories to hide the truth from his wife. He recounts a painful memory of promising to pay for a birthday dinner for both families. Although he briefly won enough money to cover the evening, he lost it all again on the way home, leading to desperate lies and shame. This incident was one of many that left him feeling trapped, exhausted, and sick with worry. Stress from gambling even led to chest pains so severe he ended up in hospital, although he admits he returned to gambling the very next day.
By early 2016, the addiction had reached a breaking point. His wife discovered new loans and knew instantly that the gambling had returned. Steve describes this moment as the day his world collapsed—but also the day recovery truly began. His last bet was on 19 February 2016. A week later, once his family had dealt with an unrelated medical emergency, he attended his first Gamblers Anonymous meeting. He immediately felt a weight lift from his shoulders. For the first time, he was in a room full of people who understood exactly what he’d been through.
Steve explains the power of GA: the unity, structure, honesty, and sense of belonging. Meetings helped him realise he could not recover alone. He embraced the practical safeguards too, handing full control of finances to his wife to avoid temptation. He continues to attend regularly and even chairs many meetings, sharing both his gambling history and the challenges of everyday life. He’s learned to listen to others, accept guidance, and lean on the group whenever he feels vulnerable.
Recovery has transformed Steve’s daily life. He describes the relief of waking up without shame, hiding nothing from his wife, and being fully present for his children. He talks emotionally about watching his son play football or attending parents’ evenings—moments he used to miss or experience through a fog of anxiety. Sobriety has brought his emotions back in a powerful way; sometimes overwhelming, but ultimately grounding and fulfilling.
Towards the end of the episode, Steve offers advice to anyone still struggling. He urges them to walk into a meeting, even if it feels intimidating, and to take things one day at a time. Recovery, he explains, brings back not just stability, but time, honesty, connection, and a sense of self that addiction destroys. He emphasises that life will never be perfect, but the tools he’s gained through GA allow him to handle challenges without turning back to gambling.
The conversation closes with Steve reflecting on his gratitude for the life he has today—a life built on honesty, accountability, unity, and the daily choice to stay in recovery.
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24 November 2025
In this episode of Addicted to Recovery, hosts Christopher White and Max Thomas sit down with Simon, a long-time listener attending the show for the first time. Simon opens up about growing up in a loving and stable home, yet always feeling different, overly sensitive, and deeply uncomfortable in his own skin. As a child he experienced night terrors, sleepwalking, and early anxiety, eventually seeing a psychiatrist at just seven years old. Those feelings of not fitting in followed him into secondary school, where he struggled with identity, belonging, and self-worth.
Simon shares how he discovered alcohol at thirteen and instantly fell in love with its ability to change how he felt about himself. From there his drug use progressed quickly—first cannabis, then speed, ecstasy and cocaine. By sixteen he was dealing to fund his habit. Although he tried at times to manage his using, especially once he became a father, alcohol remained constant. After his marriage broke down, his drinking and drug use intensified, leading him deeper into addiction.
The turning point came at forty, when a dealer encouraged him to try crack cocaine. What followed was rapid decline: secret using, smoking crack while caring for his children, constant obsession, and repeated attempts to stop that only pushed him further down. Eventually he reached a devastating emotional and spiritual bottom, even attempting to overdose. During a desperate moment in “Dry January,” he reached out to a friend in recovery who took him to his first meeting. Simon describes feeling an immediate sense of safety and connection the moment he walked through the door.
From that day, he has remained clean. Simon threw himself into the 12-step program, finding deep healing through the steps, especially in his moral inventory and amends. He shares powerful moments with his children, ex-wife, and parents—conversations filled with truth, vulnerability, and forgiveness. Today, with over 22 months clean, Simon lives a completely different life. He maintains regular meetings, service commitments, daily gratitude, and prayer. His relationships with his kids are strong, co-parenting is harmonious, his career has progressed, and even his brother has begun changing his own relationship with substances.
This episode highlights the reality of addiction’s progression, the pain it causes families, and the extraordinary transformation recovery can bring. Simon’s story is one of honesty, humility, and real hope.
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17 November 2025
In this follow-up episode, George returns to share the powerful next chapter of his recovery journey. He talks openly about the family intervention that pushed him toward rehab, calling Grant at The Lighthouse, and entering treatment full of denial, fear, and withdrawal. Inside rehab, honesty, cross-addiction sessions, and the support of others slowly begin breaking through his denial.
After leaving treatment, George dives into meetings and begins feeling moments of hope—only to experience a painful six-day relapse that becomes one of the darkest and most frightening periods of his life. That experience brings true willingness, leading him to commit fully to recovery with two rounds of 90 meetings in 90 days.
George reflects on mental health challenges, including delayed psychosis and later being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and how he balances medication, stability, and recovery. He shares how he builds a personal understanding of a higher power through nature, step work, and daily practice.
The episode explores steps four through seven, character defects, expectations, emotional maturity, and learning to correct behaviours quickly. George also describes making amends to his family—including tender moments with his parents and younger brother—and the ongoing amends he practices through being a present, loving father.
Raw, reflective, and full of hope, George’s story is a powerful reminder that recovery is messy, spiritual, practical, and life-changing—one day at a time.
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10 November 2025
In this powerful first part of George’s story, hosts Christopher White and Max Thomas sit down with their friend and fellow recovering addict, George — who shares a brutally honest look at his life before recovery.
George recalls how Addicted to Recovery itself helped him through a dark patch when paranoia and self-doubt left him isolated. At two and a half years clean, he nearly relapsed — a stark reminder that no matter how long you’ve been sober, the disease of addiction can still whisper in your ear.
He talks candidly about his early life: a sensitive, anxious child growing up in a loving family, but one marked by confusion and emotional turbulence after a violent incident at his parents’ wedding. Experimentation with drink and drugs began young — alcohol at 12, cannabis at 13, pills at 14, cocaine by 15 — and soon spiraled into chaos.
By 17, George was hospitalized twice with kidney failure, yet denial and ego kept him going. His late teens and early twenties were filled with drug use, risky work environments, toxic relationships, and growing internal conflict. A surprise pregnancy at 19 and becoming a father brought moments of clarity — but also fresh pain, guilt, and fear.
Part One ends as George’s life begins to unravel, setting the stage for his eventual decision to seek help and enter recovery — a story he’ll share in next week’s episode.
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03 November 2025
In this powerful and deeply moving episode, Paul Hannaford continues sharing his journey from addiction and crime to redemption and purpose. The conversation opens with Paul leaving the hospital after a long battle with drug abuse and serious leg injuries that nearly cost him his life. He reflects on the moment he chose recovery over returning to drugs — a decision that changed everything.
Paul recounts his early struggles finding a treatment center, the kindness of hospital staff who let him stay five extra days, and the emotional start to his rehab journey at Hope House in Weston-super-Mare. He speaks candidly about crying daily during his first week in treatment, the emotional exhaustion of addiction, and the relief of finding genuine love and hope in recovery.
From there, Paul’s story unfolds as one of rebuilding — gaining his first home, paying his first bills, and trying new opportunities like extra work on TV shows. When acting didn’t take off, he turned his focus toward service and purpose, volunteering to speak with young people about drugs, gangs, and crime. His first talk at a youth club sparked something huge — schools began inviting him to share his story, leading to thousands of talks across the UK.
Paul describes how this new calling gave him “a spiritual experience,” replacing the high he once sought from drugs with the fulfillment of helping others. His talks gained recognition from major organizations like the London Fire Brigade, QPR, Reading FC, and other Premier League clubs, reaching millions of young people nationwide.
The episode also explores Paul’s personal redemption — reconciling with his mother and family, and an emotional reunion with his daughter after 15 years apart. His story comes full circle as he celebrates her 30th birthday, reflecting on the long journey from despair to peace, gratitude, and love.
Throughout, Paul and the hosts discuss the nature of addiction, the power of connection, and the importance of ongoing spiritual growth. Paul’s honesty about relapse, trauma, and perseverance serves as a raw and inspiring message: recovery is possible, and even the most broken lives can find purpose
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